Dear Dad,
Why was it so hard for you to except me in to your life.? Did you love making me feel horrible half the time like did you not get it the first three times. Like tell me please cause it is killing mi you never under stood you could never be a father you could only be a friend. But that’s not what I need I need much more well I thought I do but I guess I was wrong. I didn’t need you and I hate that it took me so long to figure it out.
I was nothing more than a little person in your big world to pay your shit for you. You took away so much from me and my life is jest crazy now because I have to start from scratch but it’s okay. I am way stronger now then I ever was and it’s a shame that you cant see me and all the success I have done. But even if you were here you wouldn’t care. I don’t need you as my father you can stay as my friend like you told me “I only see you as a friend not a daughter’ do you not know how much that jest killed me inside. I have been through so much stuff for you to go and tell me that jest made me want to die. Like I hit depression so hard that it was even harder to get out of it. You know how hard it was to stop the tears the splashed in to my hand like puddles and to keep the blood from being released out of my skin.
They were alive at that point my pain cried out to me in the dark speaking words that scared me. Words that I didn’t even know. An know the pain I hid behind a smile I no longer there I had to walk up was and I had to tell myself he’s not worth it no more. My scares stitched them self’s up my tears stop falling in to the river of depression. I finally heard the peace in my soul.
I will no longer let you hurt me or bring me done any farther then I already been. That’s a row you can take alone and see how you feel in the end. Don’t come to me with an apologias because I don’t need it it’s not necessary anymore. Have fun in the life you choose.
